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The story behind the album

“In 2012, I applied to be a speaker for TEDxStJohns. I’ve always been a fan of TED talks and I wanted to be a part of the locally organized event in my home city. In classic Kathy style, I applied the day after the submission deadline. The organizers wrote me to say that my speaker submission was too late to be considered, but they wanted to know if I had an original song that might fit the evening’s theme; Overcoming Adversity.

I didn’t…so I wrote one.

While my six year old son played outside in the backyard, and my toddler took a nap in his room, I sat on my couch and I wrote. I wrote line after line, imagining the struggles my ancestors faced hundreds of years ago, and the adversities they overcame while raising children and making life work on a rugged island in an unforgiving North Atlantic climate. Within a half an hour, I was humming the melody line and before the hour was up, the song was completed. I recorded it on my dated computer and sent it in. They liked it, they picked it, and a few months later I was performing it on the stage of the historic Majestic Theatre in downtown St. John’s during the province’s first independently organized TED event.

As a married twenty-nine year old mother-of -two, living my dream as a singer-songwriter in my home province of Newfoundland and Labrador, I hadn’t experienced much adversity. I had no idea that six months after that performance, I would be sitting in a tiny doctor’s office, being told that I had cancer. Over the next year, I would face the greatest adversity of my life as I fought to survive illness, fear, anxiety, chemotherapy side effects and a host of unknowns. Eventually I was cancer free. I wish I could say that life went back to normal, but it took a few years to get my bearings again. In the midst of it all, a song I had written in less than an hour, on the comfort of my living room sofa, transformed into an anthem for cancer survivorship that I had no idea it could or would become.

In 2014, I sang, “Overcome” at The Hope Ball, a Cancer Centre fundraising event, joined by members of The Newfoundland Symphony Orchestra, playing a beautiful score created by orchestra director, Brian Way. Later that same year, I performed, “Overcome” and shared my story of overcoming adversity at Holy Heart Theatre as the opening act for New York Times Best Selling Author, Gabrielle Bernstein. I’ve had the privilege of performing, “Overcome” at countless fundraising events, retreats and conferences, supporting organizations like Young Adult Cancer Canada and the Daffodil Place.

In 2018, in the midst of an intense season of growth and change, I decided it was time to record the song that had brought me and others so much comfort and joy. I made plans to create my first album. I launched a Go Fund Me campaign to help get things started, and through the incredible and generous efforts of my beautiful community, I was able to get the ball rolling.

During recording, I faced a few hurdles. My marriage fell apart and was beautifully reassembled, my children experienced some adversities of their own, and when the recording was almost complete, I became very sick with a mysterious illness that caused both of my ear drums to rupture, deafening me for weeks. I had 90% of the album completed when this tragedy struck. The only song I had left to record was, you guessed it, “Overcome.”

In true ‘adversity overcoming’ fashion, I recorded the album’s title track, “Overcome,” while partially deaf, in pain, and uncertain of my future in the music and performance industry. It was an extremely challenging time, but it was also, oddly, perfect. I’m still recovering but I’m getting there.

My debut album, Overcome, will be released in September, 2019. It has been a lengthy, emotional labour of absolute love. Through this process, I’ve discovered so much about who I am as a performer and as a person. I have sung through struggle, pain, and celebration. I have written about heart break, life, family, friends, recovery and becoming brand new. This album is near and dear to my heart and I hope that it will meet you exactly where you are. I hope the lyrics mean something to you. I hope the music comforts and inspires you. I hope that our shared human experience will connect us through these words and melodies. It is a daunting experience to share one’s art with the world, but I feel absolutely honoured to be doing this, with and for you.

Thanks so much for listening.”

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Credits

“Thank you to Peter Daniel Newman for producing, arranging, co-writing, harmonizing, and encouraging. You took a dream and made it into a vivid reality. I couldn’t have done this without you. Thank you.

Big thanks to Joe Novan in the US of A for mixing the tracks, to Chelsea Eason for creating the beautiful cover artwork, and Paul Snow for making the CD and Vinyl covers work. I’m so grateful to all of you.

Thank you to my talented father, Howard Smith, for lending your voice and bass skills to “Wildwood Flower.” At 73 years old, you are still one of the most talented and gifted people I have ever met and I am honoured to have you on my album.

This album is dedicated to the people in my life who have helped me “Overcome.”

To my husband, Jason, with whom I have overcome a lifetime of highs and lows in just 16 years of marriage. You have been my “Beautiful Disaster” and forever my “Something Good.” I am so grateful for how we’ve grown and changed and that we found our way back to eachother.

To our sons, Caden and Preston. The world is absolutely a better place because “You Were Born.” Being your mother is my greatest accomplishment and I am so proud of the very different kinds of men you are growing up to be. You have kept me going and inspired me to greatness in a way no one else ever could. I adore you both.

To my amazing parents, Howard and Judy, for contributing to who I am, encouraging who I’m continually becoming and loving me every step of the way. To my family, near and far, blood and chosen, and to everyone who has supported my music throughout the years, this is for you. I’ve been performing for a decade, across the USA and Canada, from stadiums to dive bars to handfuls of people in living rooms and at camp fires and I have loved every minute of it. Choosing art as a career is an unconventional life, made possible by people who believe in it…people like you. Thank you.”

 

Lyrics

“Time”

Written and Performed by Kathy Stock & Peter Daniel Newman
Arranged by Peter Daniel Newman

You want to skip ahead and read the last page first
‘Cause even if it’s bad not knowing is the worst
Summer will change to Fall, Winter will change to Spring
There is a curtain call for every song we sing

It takes time, that’s what they keep sayin’
That’s what they keep sayin’, it takes time
It takes time, that’s what they keep sayin’
That’s what they keep sayin’, it takes time

She’s prayed a million prayers and nothing’s happening
It feels like there is no one up there listening
He’s never felt this low and there’s no end in sight
He walks a darkened road hoping he’ll find the light

But it takes time, that’s what they keep sayin’
That’s what they keep sayin’, it takes time
It takes time, that’s what they keep sayin’
That’s what they keep sayin’, it takes time

For every scar there was a wound
It doesn’t hurt like it use to
Hearts will break and hearts will mend
Whatever starts comes to an end

It takes time, that’s what they keep sayin’
That’s what they keep sayin’, it takes time

Oh it takes time, that’s what they keep sayin’
That’s what they keep sayin’, it takes time
Oh It takes time, that’s what they keep sayin’
That’s what they keep sayin’, it takes time
Oh, it takes time, that’s what they keep sayin’
That’s what they keep sayin’, it takes time

 

“Beautiful Disaster”

Written by Matthew Wilder and Rebekah Jordan
Performed by Kathy Stock
Arranged by Peter Daniel Newman

He drowns in his dreams and exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him my whole world would cave in
It just ain’t right, it just ain’t right

Oh and I don’t know, I don’t know what he’s after
But he’s a beautiful, such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful or just a beautiful disaster?

He’s magic and myth, as strong as what I believe
He’s a tragedy with more damage than a soul should see
But do I try to change him? So hard not to blame him
Hold me tight, hold me tight

Oh and I don’t know, I don’t know what he’s after
But he’s a beautiful, such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful or just a beautiful disaster?

He’s soft to the touch but frayed at the end he breaks
He’s never enough and still he’s more than I can take…

Oh and I don’t know, I don’t know what he’s after
But he’s a beautiful, such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful or just a beautiful disaster?
Would it be beautiful or just a beautiful disaster?

“Something Good”

Written by Kathy Stock
Performed by Kathy Stock & Peter Daniel Newman
Arranged by Peter Daniel Newman

Your hand fits perfectly in mine
I think about you all the time
I say dumb things when I’m in love
But nothing could ever mess this up

We’ve got something good
We’ve got something good
We’ve got something good
We’ve got something good

I like to tell how we first met
You smile ’cause you always forget
We laugh at all of the same things
You are my favourite human being

We’ve got something good
We’ve got something good
We’ve got something good
We’ve got something good

I’ve never been the kind to write a love song
But I just can’t help it this time

We’ve got something good
We’ve got something good
We’ve got something good
We’ve got something good

We’ve got something good

“Maybe”

Written by Kathy Stock
Performed by Kathy Stock & Peter Daniel Newman
Arranged by Peter Daniel Newman

Maybe I shouldn’t be so hard on you
Maybe I should try harder to be kind
Maybe I shouldn’t try to prove I’m anything
Maybe I should try to keep an open mind

I’ve heard it said that hindsight’s clear
But recently I’m still a bit confused
Was it me or was it you? Now I’m not sure what do
I’m leaning towards thinking it was me

Maybe I was and maybe I wasn’t
Maybe I should have and maybe I couldn’t
Maybe I can’t but maybe I can
Maybe I did, maybe I will, maybe I am

Maybe you shouldn’t be so hard on yourself
Maybe you shouldn’t be afraid to fight
Maybe you could stop pretending all the time
If maybe you could feel for once that you were right

I’m the one who controls me
But I think I need to a better job
Of knowing when to go or stay and when to look the other way
This is really difficult to say

Maybe I was and maybe I wasn’t
Maybe I should have and maybe I couldn’t
Maybe I can’t but maybe I can
Maybe I did, maybe I will, maybe I am

Maybe I was and maybe I wasn’t
Maybe I should have but maybe I couldn’t
Maybe I can’t but maybe I can
Maybe I did, maybe I will, maybe I am
Maybe I did, maybe I will, maybe I am

 

“No Good For Me”

Written by Kathy Stock
Performed by Kathy Stock & Peter Daniel Newman
Arranged by Peter Daniel Newman

I guess it’s finally come down to here, down to now
I must admit, it’s been a long time coming
I’ve waited all this time in hope’s that you to come around
And when I hear your voice, they’re filled with nothing

I’m cutting my loses, embracing my gains
I wish you well and close another chapter

You’re not good for me, you’re not good for me
You make me into someone I don’t want to be
You’re not good for me

So blinded by self you can not see anyone else
You’re a trail of broken hearts and smokin’ bridges
I’ve come to see you’re not good for me
As hard as it’s been for me to finally admit it

I’m cutting my loses, embracing my gains
I wish you well and close another chapter

You’re not good for me, you’re not good for me
You make me into someone I don’t want to be
You’re not good for me

There’s no method to this madness, I would choose another way
But I can’t stay like this forever I can’t stay like this for one more day

You’re not good for me, you’re not good for me
You make me into someone I don’t want to be
You’re not good for me

You’re not good for me, you’re not good for me
You make me into someone I don’t want to be
You’re not good for me

 

“Sonny’s Dream”

Written by Ron Hynes
Performed by Kathy Stock

Sonny lives on a farm on a wide open space
You can take off your shoes and give up the race
You can lay down your head by a sweet river bed
But Sonny always remembers what it was his Mama said,

“Sonny don’t go away, I am here all alone
And your daddy’s a sailor who never comes home
All these nights get so long and the silence goes on
And I’m feeling so tired, I’m not all that strong”

Sonny carries a load though he’s barely a man
There ain’t all that to do, still he does what he can
And he watches the sea from a room by the stairs
And the waves keep on rollin’, they’ve done that for years
And for years

Sonny don’t go away, I am here all alone
And your daddy’s a sailor who never comes home
All these nights get so long and the silence goes on
And I’m feeling so tired, I’m not all that strong

Sonny’s dreams can’t be real, they’re just stories he’s read
They’re just stars in his eyes, they’re just dreams in his head
And he’s hungry inside for the wide world outside
And I know I can’t hold him though I’ve tried and I’ve tried and I’ve tried

Sonny don’t go away, I am here all alone
And your daddy’s a sailor who never comes home
All these nights get so long and the silence goes on
And I’m feeling so tired, I’m not all that strong

Sonny don’t go away, I am here all alone
And your daddy’s a sailor who never comes home
All these nights get so long and the silence goes on
And I’m feeling so tired, I’m not all that strong

 

“You Were Born”

Written by Kathy Stock
Performed by Kathy Stock & Peter Daniel Newman
Arranged by Peter Daniel Newman

You were born three weeks early
And that is so like you to do
You came in March, just like a lion
Ahead of plan but right on cue

You’ve never been a fan of waiting
You’re always ready for what’s next
Too tough to be somebody’s baby
But I never will forget

The day we took you home and we were all alone
And Daddy held you on his chest
He whispered, “I don’t know how anyone leaves home,
how someone walks away from this.”

And the world looks better now
It’s more beautiful, somehow
‘Cause you were born, ’cause you were born

You showed up one day in April
Like a flower in the Spring
You grew to look just like your mother
You love to dance, you love to sing

When I see you, I see my childhood
We are very much the same
You showed up on that day in April
And we are all so glad you came

Because the world looks better now
It’s more beautiful, somehow
‘Cause you were born, ’cause you were born

You are everything I never knew I wanted
You’re my heart living outside of my chest
And when the world tries to dull the fire inside you
Remember who you are and don’t forget

That the world looks better now
It’s more beautiful, somehow
‘Cause you were born, ’cause you were born

Oh my world is better now
I can’t picture it without
Oh it’s so much better now
‘Cause you were born, ’cause you were born

 

“Wildwood Flower”

Written by Maud Irving
Performed by Kathy Stock, Howard Smith & Peter Daniel Newman
Arranged by Peter Daniel Newman

Oh I’ll twin with my mingles and waving black hair
With the roses so red and the lilies so fair
And the myrtles so bright with the emerald dew
The pale and the leader and eyes look like blue

I will dance, I will sing, and my laugh shall be gay
I will charm every heart in her crown I will sway
When I woke from my dreaming my idols were clay
All portions of love were all blown away

Oh she taught me to leave her and promised to love
And to cherish her over all others above
How my heart is now wondering no misery can tell
She left me no warning, no words of farewell

Yes she taught me to leave her and called me her flower
That was blooming to cheer her through life’s dreary hour
Oh, I long to see her and regret the dark hour
She’s gone and neglected her pale wildwood flower

Yes, she taught me to leave her and called me her flower
That was blooming to cheer her through life’s dreary hour
Oh I long to see her and regret the dark hour
She’s gone and neglected her pale wildwood flower

Oh I long to see her and regret the dark hour
She’s gone and neglected her pale wildwood flower

“Already Know”

Written and performed by Kathy Stock
Arranged by Peter Daniel Newman

I know you’re here and no longer gone
But now it is me who just doesn’t belong
And I know you’re different than you use to be
You’re no longer you and I’m no longer me

And I wouldn’t have asked and you wouldn’t have told
You wouldn’t if I didn’t already know
And sometimes the best haunts me like a ghost
I’m telling you things that you already know

The heart that was stone has turned into flesh
But time heals the wounds and the wounds still feel fresh
It’s everything I want it to be
But you’re no longer you and I’m no longer me

And I wouldn’t have asked and you wouldn’t have told
You wouldn’t if I didn’t already know
And sometimes the best haunts me like a ghost
I’m telling you things that you already know

I wouldn’t have asked and you wouldn’t have told
You wouldn’t if I didn’t already know
And sometimes the best haunts me like a ghost
I’m telling you things that you already know

I wouldn’t have asked and you wouldn’t have told
You wouldn’t if I didn’t already know
And sometimes the best haunts me like a ghost
I’m telling you things that you already know
I’m telling you things that you already know

 

“Overcome”

Written & Performed by Kathy Stock
Arranged by Peter Daniel Newman

A soul can withstand a lot before it caves
And what doesn’t crush it makes it better
Bareness and cold have never robbed our joy
We stand our ground and pray for better weather

We have never been the kind to fall apart
When the wind starts blowing
We have never been the kind to drift away
Instead we raise our anchor and keep going

We overcome, we overcome
We mourn the things we’ve lost and cherish what we’ve won
We have overcome, We have overcome

It takes a lot of strength to face another day
When the day before it left you beaten
But every painful step brings you closer to a world
That will be better for your children

We overcome, we overcome
We mourn the things we’ve lost and cherish what we’ve won
We have overcome, We have overcome

And we are not the sum of our mistakes
We are a testament to the sacrifices that were made

We overcome, we overcome
We mourn the things we’ve lost and cherish what we’ve won
We have overcome, We have overcome